Identity Flush

Hey guys. Let me start by apologizing for the huge delay in my material. I have had some difficulties in coming up with decent topics.

All that changed today as I lay in bed. It is 1.23am and I had been listening to some music (metal, of course) and I had just then bid good night to a close friend. I realized that I have this unusual epoch, every couple of months, where I start to wonder "What was I like a month ago?". And not only that, but I get into this weird frame of mind where I recompute every aspect of my life and emerge on the other side, a slight variant from what I used to be.

It takes a lot of time and effort for a person to figure out who she/he is and who she/he wants to be. usually this time and effort is spent before joining college or work so that one can build a new/stronger/different identity for a fresh start. And so I did too. But then I realized that my identity is subject to change by my own identity. Sometimes, I am in a geeky kind of framework where all I think and talk of is programs (software programs) and sometimes I'm this laid back, lethargic lad who lives life in the moment. There are probably many other frameworks too but I still haven't got a bird's eye view of them. This identity of mine holds good for a while and then I enter the space of introspection. I have no idea of what badge I carry during these turbulent times (probably, someone who knows me well can fill in the details).

At the end of the process, I emerge, from mental chaos, a slightly modified person possessing an identity which is a hybrid of my base identities. As I write this, I started to wonder whether I own multiple personalities. I hear that people with multiple personalities are frowned upon. yikes... But in my defense, I am not in control of this cycle. I do not decide to flush my identity and build a new one. It just happens and today, out of no where, I was able to get a worlds' view of my condition. Now, I do not know if my friends also experience the same or whether it is common amongst people, but all I want to do now is to investigate very deeply as I feel that this is the "critic" element that is present in humans that make humans humans. If this feature is modeled precisely into well formed algorithms, Artificial Intelligence gets a whole new dimension.

I hope I did not ruin the cycle by exposing it to the world ('cos das hw somethings in the world works) but I want to get an intricate analysis into it ('cos, to be honest, i njoy the whole process somehow).

It's 2.01 am. I know u must be like, "Boy! is he a slow typist." but I wanted to make the right choice of words (not the most complicated; but right, at least of wot i cud think of) to precisely put forth my experience.

Any and all comments are most welcome.

take care fellows... :)
Adios